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Could it get worse!!?

 No pictures today.  I am feeling pretty down today.  This is probably the second time since May 2020 that I believe getting that MBA was the biggest waste of time and money that I have ever done.  You see, I believed the lie that told me I could do better for myself and my family by getting that MBA.  Load of crap.  I thought that getting the MBA would allow me to move up in the company that I am with, It didn’t and when that didn’t happen, I have spent the last two years trying to find a job that would pay more or the same as what I am making now.  This morning I learned that I was turned down for another job.  Useless.  That degree has not gotten me anywhere and I am stupid for thinking that it would.  My dad would have loved for me to have stayed at home and worked with him, but I had to be stupid and leave Winston County so I could come to the big city and be somebody.  I could have been somebody working with my dad.  Today is my pity party and no one else is invited and I don’t want any comments to this post.  I don’t need anyone’s encouraging platitudes.  It would be nice to know that the things I do matter.  I do believe things will get better, but right now it’s tough looking at the big picture, and frankly I don’t give a rip about the big picture.  I want the big picture to be the now picture.  I am sick of trying.  I am tired of plowing.  

My attitude is poor right now.  It will get better, but it’s gonna be a minute.  God has a plan.  I know that and I have no choice but to trust and wait.  But I think this last job I was turned down for is the last one I will apply for.  In the meantime, I will do what I know to do, I will work for my current employer like I am working for God and let my work be praise to his Holy Name.  No more LinkedIn, Facebook or any one of  the multiple social media platforms.  So, if you happen to have found this post, then congratulations, you didn’t come here via a shared post on Facebook.  So, to answer the question, yes it could be worse.  I am thankful for what I have and my attitude right now is not a reflection of how much grace He has shown to my family and I.  My attitude is simply a reflection of circumstances that have hit me in the face again today.  Thank God that His mercies are new every morning.  




 






  










































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































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